A Guest Post from Liam Adams

Today, Liam is going to do a guest post about the thing he and his classmates are  doing at school.

LiamonhisownHi, my name is Liam. I am eleven years old and in sixth grade.

My school is trying to buy a tuba, some chimes, a cello, a bass, and other instruments for our music program for kids who can’t afford to buy or rent their instruments.

Music is one of my favorite subjects and I’m learning how to play the violin this year. If you want to help you can donate here.  I have five Kinard stickers to give out to the first five people to donate $10. So if you donate, please put my name in the box and comment below that you donated so I can mail you a sticker and a thank you card. If you want to donate with a check, comment below and my mom will email you.



https://sites.google.com/site/kinardinstrumentpledge/ – that link again.


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My friend’s new blog

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Brain, Child

I  love Brain, Child Magazine, and it is a huge honor for me to be included amongst their incredibly talented collective of writers. I wrote this article this summer, so I’m excited to see it published today. http://www.brainchildmag.com/2014/10/the-ugly-side-of-pretty/


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The Privilege Papers: No One Ever Called Me a Racist

The Privilege Papers is a new series of blog posts I’m writing about White Privilege and my efforts to teach my children and myself about racism in America.

People who follow me on Facebook may have noticed that I’m sharing a lot of great posts about racial disparity in America. Someone I know joked, “Who called Amanda a racist?” and I know that the assumption was that these posts were shared in defense or contrition, but that is not the case.  I’m not making amends. I’m not clutching my pearls of white guilt. I’m just paying attention, finally, and I’m paying that forward. Not out of guilt or obligation to any one person, but because it’s the right thing to do.

For a long time I thought racism issues were all about racists. I thought that these were not my problems. What I’ve learned over the past few years is that racism is everyone’s problem:  every time someone says something prejudiced, makes a racist joke, or implies that minorities somehow deserve to be mistreated. This is especially true when the racism is expressed in white company. When that happens, we white persons make a choice to be quiet or to speak out.

We may not laugh, we may not repeat the joke, we may silently disagree, but when we fail to speak it is assumed that we acquiesce. We let that racism live and leave the racist feeling validated by our complicit silence.

When we speak out, we take a risk by confronting someone else’s ignorance. Sometimes it’s family, sometimes it’s friends, sometime it’s coworkers, but confrontation is never easy. Yet, when we are silent and constantly defer to people of color to stand up against ignorance, we are more complicit than deferential. We may think we are deferring to their experience, but in reality we are shifting the burden to those who are already demeaned and demoralized.

Right and wrong are real. It is wrong to make any assumption about “all black people” and it’s wrong to make assumptions about “all Latinos,” or “all Asians,” and yet one of our favorite white contortions (and of this I have been guilty) is to dodge accusations for racism by saying, “not all white people” are racist, hateful, ignorant, etc. But we cannot honestly say, “most white people are not racist.” Until we can say all white people want all people treated fairly, “not all white people” is a false defense for the “plenty of white people,” who are still blatantly racist and the “most white people,” who never speak up against racism. There is a “terrifying majority of white people” who just don’t give a damn about racism until it’s national news for a few days, and then they go back to caring about more comfortable concerns.

The thing is, people of color don’t get to forget about racism when the news story fades away, because they still have to deal with hate and disrespect, every day. They still have to deal with those white people who think our white silence makes them right. Sure, maybe you and me and “some white people,” really do care. Maybe we are willing to stand up, now, finally. But until “more white people,” are willing to do the same, when this white person shares posts about the endemic and systematic illness that is institutionalized racism in America, the white people who know her will think she’s speaking out to show she’s “not all white people,” instead of speaking out because all human beings deserve dignity, respect, and to be heard.

No, “not all white people,” are hateful, but more white people need to be outraged by the hate. More white people need to demonstrate sincere compassion for the pain of people of every color. More white people need to stop relying on “not all white people,” and start speaking out as individuals and in groups when the other white people are being the racists we don’t want to be.

Until we are loud and clear that they don’t speak for the rest of us, no one knows where we stand. Silence is abdication. Silence is complicity. Silence is not deferment. “Not all white people,” speak for me. I speak for myself, and I will not be silent anymore. No one called me a racist, but I’m calling bullshit on my own silence. It’s time to be part of the change I want to see in the world, and it’s long overdue. Otherwise I am part of the problem.

For some really great voices and stories by women of color, please read these great essays. Read them without defensiveness. Read them with compassion. Read them while loving your neighbor as you would like to be loved.

1. http://herhonestlife.blogspot.com/2014/09/its-little-things-true-violence-against.html

2. http://scantililyclad.blogspot.ca/2014/09/letter-to-white-feminism.html

3. http://www.nailedmagazine.com/editors-choice/deserve-shannon-barber/

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Guest Post: Anti-Rape Nail Polish and the Ice Bucket Challenge: Symptoms of Similar Problems

Lately I’ve been blessed with a larger community of fellow writers and I’m happy to share my web site as a platform for them to in turn share their work with their own friends and fans and introduce my own readers to other points of view and ideas. This post by Lily Tsui is so thoughtful, insightful, and true to the pace of our lives and the weakness of our attention spans. She gives us a lot to think about, and as a health advocate constantly struggling to establish a lasting empathy for my child’s life-threatening disease, I sincerely appreciate the points she makes. Well done, Lily, thanks for sharing with us!

Anti-Rape Nail Polish and the Ice Bucket Challenge: Symptoms of Similar Problems

by Lily Tsui

My social media circles seem pretty evenly split when it comes to taking sides on both the rape-drug detecting nail polish and the ALS ice bucket challenge. It dawned on me (while thinking about life and things as I drove across town), that there are a lot of parallels.


The nail polish may prevent some cases of sexual assault.
The ice bucket challenge has raised a shit-tonne of money and awareness for ALS.

Both of those things are not really controversial. Of course it’s good if someone detects that their drink has been tampered with. It’s also good that more people are now aware of ALS.

What’s problematic for me, is when we probe a little deeper and we ask, “What kind of world do we live in, where these things are good news?”

The fact that this nail polish has been invented tells us something about how deeply entrenched rape is in our culture. It is so prevalent and seen as so unstoppable that we are now designing cosmetics with additional safety features, because this is seen as more likely to work than actually expecting men to just NOT RAPE PEOPLE.

The fact that it took a viral social media campaign where we can gleefully watch our friends, family, and celebrities dump a bucket of ice water over our heads to get us to give a shit about a debilitating and fatal neurological disease tells us how willfully blind we are to things that are literally killing people. We live in a culture where without some trendy viral campaign or a rainbow parade of ribbons, we are simply unable to care. We cannot take action without prompting; when we take action we believe we are entitled to cookies and attention. What would happen if we took all the energy and time spent on dumping ice over our heads and used it to push our governments to invest in science, research, and healthcare in ways that actually results in better health for all? Then it wouldn’t be just about the disease of the day. It would be about systematic improvements in health for all.

The debate shouldn’t be about the nail polish or the ice bucket challenge as good or bad. They’re both. They are band-aid fixes to seriously broken systems. We need to focus on fixing the systems. Whether you’re pro-nail polish or anti-ice bucket challenge, I urge you, whether it’s sexual violence or disease that’s top of mind for you right now, dig a little deeper. Learn a little more. Do something beyond taking part in short-term quick fixes.

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Fascinating? Assholes?

A guest post by Anastasia Chipelski:

If I had my shit together enough to have a personal catchphrase, it would be “I’m ok” (subheading:  “no really, I’m ok.”)  I can be pretty consistently ok, or ok-passing, but most of the time I’m also the last one to notice when I’m not. That’s a problem, and it’s not ok.

But I’ve found a trick to clue in to my own ok-meter: I measure how I feel about strangers.

For the most part, I think that the other human beings living on this planet are fascinating. Not like love-everybody hashtag-blessed fascinating, but a curious “it’s amazing how we all get by” fascinating.

Working in social services, I’ve been trusted with snippets of strangers’ stories – nervous disclosure, brash assertions and all. Whether people’s stories align with our crappy stereotypes or not, everybody, rich or poor, educated in schools or on the street, well-dressed or couldn’t give two shits – when they are struggling, everyone has moments when they feel like they’re facing their particular problem all alone.

From the outside, there is no goddamn way to see the load someone is carrying, or to know whether they feel like they’re carrying it alone.

I’m a vault of stories, and the more I hear, the more I realize that I don’t know someone’s shit any better than they do. When someone chooses to share their tough day with me, it shines a light on my own ignorance. Living in any government system is a skill. Living on the street is a whole other set of skills. Living every day in your life and keeping your own damn self alive takes a set of strategies that, quite frankly, I can’t claim to know anything about.

I know how to do me, kind of, most days, alright kind of sort of, I mean, YES!  I’m ok.

When I really am ok, it’s easier to see the world with the belief that people can be weird as fuck and that they’re also all amazing. Comparing lives is a useless practice, and anyone who thinks they’re an expert on other people, well, I wouldn’t take their assertions too seriously (though I would still consider them to be oh so fascinating).

People can also be assholes, and they can be total jerks to other people, judgmental as fuck, and cruel. Exhibit one: the People of Wal-mart phenomenon, taking a sideways look at someone, measuring them up, and laughing. That fucking sucks.

A brilliant friend of mine (who has also been through the social services wringer) told me that people only hurt others when they are hurting. When people are assholes, I try to remember that those assholes are also dealing with some shit I know nothing about, with their end result being asshole.

So when I leave the house, am I ok? First check: how do I see these other human people, especially the random ones that I only catch half a glimpse of: The backwards ball-cap wearing dude who almost runs me off the road in his truck. The construction workers taking their first smoke break on the steps of the neighbourhood church. The mom impatiently pulling her crying toddler behind her, cursing aloud to the sky, and stopping in the middle of the street, making me brake suddenly to avoid a horrible crash.

We humans are judgmental creatures, and maybe we can’t help it. But if I stop to notice these judgments, I can decide which category my daily views are falling into. Fascinating? Or Everyone’s an Asshole, Kindly Fuck Off? Then I can ask myself: really, am I ok?

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At a Loss for Words

Aphasia  from ancient Greek ἀφασία (ἄφατος, ἀ- + φημί), “speechlessness”[1]) is an impairment of language ability. This class of language disorder ranges from having difficulty remembering words to being completely unable to speak, read, or write.  ~ Wikipedia

My first migraine occurred at age seven. Sobbing made it worse, so I was still, for days. By fourteen migraine visited every twenty-eight days until contraceptives regulated my hormones. On the pill migraines vanished for a year but returned with aphasia.

The first time I lost my words I laughed.  It didn’t last, then the pain came. My migraine pain is like at thumb pressed as hard as possible into a deep bruise, except the bruise is my entire head, and the thumb is the slightest sliver of light, the tiniest motion, a creaking bone, the brush of a pillow against my ear. I’ve known this pain most of my life, so while I dread it, I don’t fear it.

Migraine pain is fairly common, but aphasia migraine (sometimes called complex migraine) is rare.  It resembles a stroke.  My first was brief, and I didn’t equate it to the ensuing pain. My second severe aphasia experience occurred at twenty-six. A flash of light hit my peripheral vision. Moments later, I could not read. I called my sister but spoke gibberish.  For more than an hour I was hostage to my brain, which was thinking thoughts but losing language. As a writer, the fear of losing words forever filled me with terror. I didn’t know it was a migraine; I didn’t know if it would ever end. Finally, I was saved by the familiar pain that can only be soothed by absolute silence, stillness, and darkness.

For most of my thirties my migraines caused one side of my body to go entirely numb from the roof of my mouth to my pinky toe. During a rare night migraine I walked through the cold at a shopping center until I could see straight, wishing for the pain to come. I needed the pain because the aura only ends where the pain begins. Once I could tolerate the light, I spent two hours walking around Target with my child in a shopping cart, touching each finger to my thumb, over and over again until the feeling returned to my right hand. I feared speaking to the checker, afraid she would think I was drunk.

The migraine I experienced two years ago was my worst in twelve years.  I could not read the menu at the restaurant where we ate or a simple sign in the parking lot. I could not remember the words, “clam chowder,” even as I ate it. But I wasn’t scared because I knew what was happening when my right hand felt like ice and my teeth went numb.  I willed it to pass, and it did.  It was not a stroke, but my husband Jim was terrified. He wanted to take me to the ER, but I refused. Eventually, I saw a neurologist. An MRI showed scarring on my brain from decades of migraine, but it is blessedly more rare as I age.

For two years I was blessed without severe migraine, but Thursday I went to bed at 4:30 pm and didn’t get up for 45 hours. I couldn’t even look at a computer screen, much less read words. Jim challenged me to read a thank you card, I failed. The migraine passed, but not without reminding me how lucky I am to have my words and how I treasure them.

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